The Good:
The Bad:
The Weird:
A month or two ago, Owen and I decided to get some family photos taken with Kanan. We hadn’t had any family photos taken with Kanan since we were married and wanted to get some done before our family grew. Our friend Marci Mares took the photos at a beautiful state park near our house called Guajome. Look her up! She is an amazing photographer and has great packages! Kanan behaved well and my belly was still small enough not to take the thunder from our family shots. I tried not to wear anything that really showed off my belly just to make sure the focus was on the three of us. Anyway, take a look to at the photos in our Flickr thumbnails to the right. This one is one of my favorites. Belly shots will be coming next in our professional photo collection, courtesy of my friend Lisa Briley—another amazing photographer!
And…….
It’s a boy!!! Who would have thought? Certainly not Owen or I or most people for that matter. Only one teenage student and our friend Amy said boy. I was sicker this time around it seemed, and more tired, so I assumed that the differences chocked it up to a girl. Nope. Haha! Regardless, I am soooo excited. I cried when I saw the images of him on the screen. And Owen is stoked too. Kanan got to be with us as well and see the baby on the screen.
Well, we did figure out a boy name weeks back. It was the girl names we were struggling with (Anayah, Alessandra, Jordan, Genesis, or Allison were possibilities). So as of two weeks ago, our little boy’s name is Mathias James Hemsath. But now that we know it is a boy, Owen would like to put some more thought into the name so I’m not guaranteeing it will stay Mathias James. So until we officially know, we will refer to this munchkin as Baby Boy Hemsath.
As for other updates
Weeks along: almost 18
Estimated due date: May 20
Heartbeat/rate: 154 bpm
Next appointment scheduled: Jan 12
Condition of baby: Active and healthy boy! Baby Boy Hemsath was so active during the ultrasound, the tech could barely get clear image shots.
I know my favorite books for pregnancy help me know what to expect each week. So much of it is right on. But here’s my additional symptoms.
Food cravings: none
Other symptoms: stuffy nose and sneezing constantly! (the nose ring doesn’t help), breathlessness, intense insatiable thirst! Getting up to go to the bathroom one to two times in the night. And feeling more voluptuous in the décolletage area.
Nausea: only a bout once a week in the morning. And perhaps one episode in the evening since my last post.
Fatigue: pretty much gone!!! I feel fabulous!
Size of belly: starting to wear some maternity pants even though they are too big for me. Discovered stretch pants from Motherhood Maternity that feel like heaven! I would seriously wear these pants every day, all day for the rest of the pregnancy if I could. I actually don’t want to wash them even though I still do because it means I can’t wear them. I don’t know what is in the material if these particular stretch pants but I have never worn pants so wonderful in my life.
Weight Gain thus far: 6 lbs
Condition of father: Quote: ” I have never been so happy in my life. “
Thank you God for making the Jasmine flower. Yes, I am ever thankful. One may not think much of Jasmine just by looking at it. A native of China and other tropical climates, it’s not extravagant in its beauty but rather simple. Its small, white blossoms form in clusters in large bushes or vines. But it is its fragrance that has captured my heart and has imprinted so many memories of my life into my mind. She is a wonderful surprise that continues to surprise me, every time she shows up.
My love for it first started as a child when my mom grew honeysuckle and Jasmine flowers along the back fence of our back yard. On early, sunny mornings in the summer, my mother opened up the sliding glass door to let the light and fresh air in, and the left-over fragrance of Jasmine and Honeysuckle from the night blossoming burst in to the kitchen. I remember the first time I noticed it, I was sitting at the breakfast bar eating my Rice Chex cereal with banana slices and breathed in deeply after her fragrance said hello, a smile blossoming on my face and I looked up at my mom. “What’s that smell?” I asked. And so it began.
She surprises me every time, because she doesn’t stand out visually. And her fragrance doesn’t slowly build in its introduction. She may look passive, but she is confident in her fragrant entry. She truly bursts in. One second you don’t smell her. The next second you do. To this day I can be walking along a sidewalk to a friend’s house in their neighborhood or down a pathway on a school campus, thinking of those busy things that occupy so much of our time when we are on our way to wherever it is we are going. Yet the second I get a whiff of that fragrant flower and my mind registers what is happening, I instantly stop and begin sniffing and looking around me for the source. But as soon as I find her, I smile. Thankful and relieved, I pinch off a cluster of the flowers to carry and smell with me as I continue on my way.
The first time I bought flowers to fill my own yard as a young adult, I picked Jasmine. It took almost a year before the vines of the bushes grew long enough to cover the side of the fence that framed my driveway. But once it did, and summer nights came near a full moon when the blossoms opened and released their fragrance, I lingered on my way out of my car before I came inside for my night of rest. The stresses of the day would melt away, and I was ready to make dinner and put the day behind me.
When I moved into a condo in Carlsbad in my mid twenties, my new roommate Amber introduced me to Jasmine tea. She was sort of a hippy and we bonded over conversations about healthy foods, talks of nature, and finding our life purpose. On one such conversation, she poured me a cup of hot, Jasmine tea and as soon as I raised the cup to my lips to take a sip, the steam from the tea rose up and filled my nostrils. A rush of euphoria filled me and our conversation continued with more smiles and laughter and reminiscent stories of our lives.
Years later after that season of my life had long since faded, my good friend Lael got married in the summer at a beautiful country club in San Marcos, CA. We girls were nervously chatting and giddy as we dressed in our bridesmaids dresses, applying makeup, and styling our hair. I left momentarily to find a restroom and take a break from the noise and opened up the back door of the dressing room. Instantly, my eyes were flooded with the mid-morning light and my nostrils with the unexpected and very welcomed scent of Jasmine flowers. There was no need to turn around and sniff out the source. There, five inches from my face flowed a beautiful vine of Jasmine blossoms cascading down a white trellis. I stood there, my nose one-inch deep in the clusters of white, closed my eyes, and just stopped–stopped thinking, stopped looking, stopped moving. I just let the fragrance fill me and let the white light filter through the cracks of the trellis and in between the leaves of Jasmine and through my eyelids. Nothing mattered for the two minutes or so that froze during that time. I just quieted my soul. Then right after I uprooted from that transcendental sliver of time, I prayed—-thank you God for these beautiful flowers you created. How do I explain all the feelings that come over me when I breathe in Jasmine? I did some research and found out that it’s not purely nostalgic for me. Jasmine flowers have been used in aromatherapy for years to rejuvenate the body, raise the moods of those suffering from depression, and relieve stress and anxiety.
So much of that makes sense to me. I have had moments in my life when I have been angry or hurt and yet, if I breathe in the scent of Jasmine, whether it be in that hot cup of tea, a bottle of lotion at a Hawaiian-themed surf shop, or in cluster of blossoms I tore from a Jasmine bush on a random sidewalk, I am able to pull out of those emotions, take a break, and move forward, realizing that there is so much more in life that is worthy of being enjoyed. Jasmine has become a self-fulfilling medicine for me. With each pleasing breath I take in of her, she reminds me of every other time she has surprised me in my life and has always brought happiness and peace with each occasion.
Some Wonderful Jasmine Products I Just Can’t Live Without! If you like Jasmine–you must try these!
Well the word is out as it is official. We are pregnant! As of today, I am 15 weeks pregnant. Agh! It was so difficult keeping it a secret the first 12 weeks, but after the miscarriage we had in the spring, we really wanted to avoid all of the awkward conversations if we suffered from another one. But when we went in for our 11-week-check up and the heartbeat was good and strong, the doctor told us that the chance of miscarriage from there after would be very rare, so we decided to make the announcement! We are ecstatic of course!
But until our little sunshine makes his/her first cry into this world, we must pass through the pregnancy stage. I’ve got 25 more weeks to go and so far, this pregnancy has been super different from my one with Kanan. Firstly, I am waaaaaaaaaaayyyyy more nauseous and tired this time around. Is it my age? Is it the baby? Could this mean I’m having a girl? Who knows, but it is a fact. I’ve been blessed, however, after week 10 with a lovely little pill called Zofran which has helped me deal with my nausea enough so that I’m not completely useless. My role as a wife and a mother has already slipped because of the nausea. And prior to the magic little pill, poor Kanan and Owen were living off of fast food or mac and cheese because just the idea of me getting up and standing in that kitchen sent me to the bathroom hurling. And energy to do anything other than pass out on the couch? Gone! Praise God, people are much more understanding about me being a lazy lump on the couch when they know I’m pregnant. Still, I’d rather just not suffer from that at all. Zofran doesn’t make the symptoms go away, put it has helped me eat and begin doing some simple cooking again. It hasn’t helped the fatigue, however, so you can imagine how excited I am to finally be in the second trimester when the supposed energy returns! Second week into trimester two and still waiting……but, there is hope! 🙂 I’m really looking forward to getting back to the gym or running with my friend Courtney on Wednesday evenings. But it seems that with working all day, then coming home to being a mother and a wife, those Wednesday evenings have succeeded in only two things—-rest and some much-needed sanity time reading The Word. Now you may be wondering, what all of this laziness has done to my figure. Well, praise the Lord again, due to my nausea, I haven’t eaten nearly as much as I did the first 15 weeks with Kanan. I think by 15 weeks, I had already gained 6 or 7 pounds with him. But this time, I’ve only gained 2 pounds. And even with those two pounds of gain, I am exactly the same weight I was before I was pregnant with Kanan. So….in the end, I’m doing pretty well. Oddly, while I have not gained any significant weight, I look way more pregnant than I did at 15 weeks with my little boy. Right now I look as big as I did when I was 4 or 5 months pregnant with him, especially at night-time, after the food and the weight loosens my ligaments enough to make my belly swell more.
One exciting difference in this pregnancy is that I have five friends who are pregnant too and one family member! And even more exciting, two friends who are both 15 weeks along as well! My friend Kelly (who unfortunately moved to the East Coast) and I are now due date buddies over Facebook. And my friend Claire who lives in San Marcos! And then I have four friends who just had babies within the last couple of months. Yes, 2010 is the year for babies in our little part of the world. I can’t wait for all the play dates.
As for names, Owen and I are undecided as of yet. Well actually, I have two girl names I just love, but haven’t yet convinced Owen that either one should be the one, if we indeed have a girl. Owen has come up with one, which I refuse because I love our child and want to save her from ridicule! haha! As for boy names, I’ve come up with one, which didn’t go over very well with Daddy.And Owen hasn’t even thought of boy names because he is convinced it is a girl!
Okay, concluding Stats and dates before I close:
Weeks along: 15
Estimated due date: May 20
Heartbeat/rate: 152 bpm (very good for those of you who are used to the adult 70 pbm)
Next appointment scheduled: Dec 13
Find out the sex: Dec 13
Food cravings: none
Food aversions: if I’m feeling nauseous, everything.
Other symptoms: stuffy nose and sneezing constantly! (the nose ring doesn’t help), breathlessness, intense insatiable thirst! Getting up to go to the bathroom one to two times in the night. And feeling more voluptuous in the décolletage area. 😉
Nausea: getting better but still not gone.
Fatigue: getting better but still not gone.
Size of belly: belly button starting to poke out and I’m using a rubber-band to help my jeans fit until I’m big enough for maternity pants.
Condition of father: excited!
Horchata. It is one of those little things in life that make me want to say, “Thank you Lord.” Whoever the person was who decided one day in a small village in Mexico to combine one cup of rinsed long grain rice, two quarts of water, one cinnamon stick, broken into pieces, and then let it sit for three hours before boiling it, blending it, sieving it, and then to come up with the brilliant idea of flavoring it with one teaspoon vanilla, and half a cup of white sugar and pouring it over ice—-this person shares a sliver of my own heart.
I do not go to Mexican cafes and order anything without pairing it with a Horchata. And every time I take that first sip of this divine beverage, I get a flash of memory of the very first time I took that first sip–and I smile.
I was shy, gangly six-year-old, living in Ocean Beach, California with my little brother Anthony and sister Barbie, our Mexican nanny named Xochil along with her two nieces Sandy and Nena, and my mom. One summer night, Xochil took us kids out for an evening walk. I remember the black sky and stars above, looking down at us as we walked along the city sidewalks warmed by street lights and the neon lights hanging in the liquor store windows, souvenir shops, and the little hole-the-wall-Mexican restaurant where Xochil said we could stop. I remember trying to look over the counter to see the men whose voices I heard as they cooked carne asada and quesadillas behind the glass wall, but it was too high–I only saw wood walls, stickers, and glass. The room was bright and Mariachi music danced through the speakers of an old, dusty boombox near the cash register.
Xochil talked in fast, friendly Spanish with the cashier then looked down at me and said, “¿quieres un horchata? ”
“What’s a horchata?” I asked.
Sandy and Nena stopped playing with my brother Anthony’s light brown hair and just looked at me. Barbie continued to open and close the mouths of the bubble-gum dispensers by the opened, glass door.
“¿Nunca tenía horchata? Aye mija, necesitas que probar uno,” Xochil replied excitedly.
“Ok,” I responded, curious as to what it could be.
And then Sandy, her neice picked up a styrophome cup with a plastic lid and straw from the counter top and handed it to me with big eyes and a waiting countenance. I looked through the lid and saw a milky white drink and ice.
I took a drink—-the most perfectly sweet, creamy, cool drink I ever had. I don’t remember much after that. Just horchata and laughter as we walked back home. I have no memory as to whether my brother and sister had a drink–my brother was only one at the time, so I’m sure Sandy or Nena held him. My sister probably had her own or shared the horchata with me. Maybe we all shared as we were quite poor at the time. But there was no fighting. Only laugher and baby corn teeth, conversation filled with Spanish and English words, and Xochil, normally so serious, contentedly sipping hot sauce out of a ramekin like it was juice and listening to us children as she looked up at the moon and the lights ahead.
“Why are you drinking hot sauce Xochil?” I asked.
“Para kill de snakes en mi stomach,” she said with a wink.
Night. Lights. Warmth. Horchata. Laughing. White smiles and brown skin.
–Theresa
Revelation 21:4
He will wipe every tear from our eyes. And there will be no more death, sadness, crying, or pain because all of the old ways will be gone.
Thank you Jesus! When I read this, I remember why you came. You came to give us the truth. You have saved those of us who put our trust and love in you, our Lord. And you will come back and restore this fallen world to the beautiful perfection it once was. And you will dwell with us, your children who love you.
This is what will get me through this miscarriage. And I pray that this give any other readers who are suffering, a glimpse of your love and grow a thankful, believing heart.
–Theresa